Hello again!
I know it’s been a while but, I’m sure you understand, hahaha.
Her we are, six weeks into our lives with a new bean. He is SO big it’s not funny. He’s currently wearing a 6/9 mo sleeper onesie and although it is a little big, it’s not big by much. We named this precious little life, Nash Angelo Blackstone. ♥️
My little gummy bear was born July 6th, weighing in at a whopping 9lbs 6oz! Thank God we had a scheduled c-section! When he was finally born, one of the nurses yelled out 8:13, the time he was born, and I thought it was his weight, lol. I looked at Dave and said “that’s a good size” and, I was happy about it. Then they said the size and we looked at each other in sheer shock and disbelief. I didn’t have words for that. Just a deer-in-headlights face.
Everything went as planned, it couldn’t have gone better than it did and I checked myself out of the hospital 30 hours after my arrival. I prepped my doctor ahead of time and of course (with his blessing and instruction) told everyone else I was leaving too. He said “tell everyone” and that’s exactly what I did. I even told the lovely lady that came to pick up the garbage and tidy up my room. I wasn’t messin’ around.
After they put all my pieces back together like humpty dumpty, Doc leaned over the “curtain” they put up to keep husbands from fainting and said, “it could not have gone better than it did, you should have no problem going home tomorrow.” And good thing because what he doesn’t know is, I was going home regardless. This wasn’t my first rodeo and I wanted to go home.
Bellevue is a great hospital and they really make it easy to have babies. Even during this crazy time we are living in, they were more than helpful. Everyone was fantastic until the verrrrry last nurse I had. I coulda done without her.
24 hours post-op, hormones, new baby to take care of, little sleep AND, then you’re over an hour late with pain meds even after I called twice?
Yes, she’s still alive.
Fast forward to our current status and we are just loving every second of his life. He’s finally able to see our faces and he smiles when we talk to him. He does have his fussy days and he eats A LOT but, he’s a really good baby. Allie is in awe of him and she is the best big sister ever! She is so incredibly helpful to us. She doesn’t hesitate to help when she’s asked and she loves spending time with him. I am really blessed with two wonderful children.
I think about that a lot…how good my kids are. I know Baby Nash (that’s what we call him right now) is just six weeks old but much like Allie, I can tell what kind of kid he is going to be. To put it simply I say “content and calm parents produce content and calm kids”. I know a lot of that is true but, I also know how much God is in all of this. I had my struggle. For 10 years I painfully waited for Allie. As many times I had where I wanted to walk away from my faith in Jesus, I didn’t. I persevered and He gave me her.
It’s never easy waiting on a promise. It’s never easy just waiting for something you desperately desire, even if God isn’t part of your equation. The waiting can be really painful…sometimes just down right devastating. However if you have Jesus in your life, at least you have someone to cast the burden on. I just recently had to go through something really stressful and He really met me in my mud. Instead of fighting in my own strength, He gave me confidence to just be who I am. I stood from a place of victory instead of just begging for Him to help me. I know who I am in Him therefore, I know who I am. When I can’t hold myself up, He does. When I don’t have the strength to fight, He goes before me with fire. When I feel defeated, He is my shelter.
What does any of that mean? It means when I face life, He’s in ever second of it.
WHY?
Because when things are good, I thank Him. I give Him praise for everything right or wrong in my life. I thank Him through adversity. I stand believing he will see me through anything I face. I actively work to keep my heart in the right place in all situations and if I find myself off track, I correct it immediately. He knows me better than I know myself. He knows my heart better than I do. The state of my heart matters to God. It’s important for me to keep that in the right place toward everyone and every situation.
Having a relationship with God isn’t about what He can do for me, it’s about what I can do for Him. From there, He is with me in everything. He’s in my small details, my tiny insignificant life. He’s even with me when He is silent. You may not be able to feel Him when you’re in the thick of it but, you can always look back and find Him.
Today I am asking for His strength because well, I am old and tired. These bones ae tired and I have anew gummy that needs a constant “something”. Hahaha. Diapers seem to be a bit easier this time…maybe because he’s a boy? Can anyone confirm that? Lol. He did pee on me for the first time the other day (thankfully it was in the bathtub). I made it six week though, I can’t say the same for dadda!! All I’m sayin’ in, he SHOULD know better!
Until next time, here’s a picture of the little guy. This was taken July 30th.
XO!! – Jennie
Thank you! I needed to see those words especially the part about promise. I’m currently in the mud. I don’t know which way to go, what does He want me to do? You are correct it is painful waiting on a promise especially if it doesn’t happen and life happens…I remind myself constantly, there’s a reason for this. Gods way of thinking is way different than ours. I’m happy for you both. Finally, your dreams have come to pass. I have a feeling mine is just starting even though I don’t know what it is. God bless you!
Oh Kathy, I will be praying for wisdom and direction. It’s hard to sit through times where you don’t feel like things are changing but, thankfully because of any history you have with Him, you can be sure He is working. I am standing on His word and believing for breakthrough on your behalf! Xoxo